[He knows. They're both insane at this point, and he hates hates hates knowing that the person inside of him is responsible for making Tristan this way. That he wasn't always like that. That he started out good, and Ariel ruined it. As angry and betrayed as he feels, he loves his big brother and hates himself far more than he could possibly hate Tristan for screwing up in this lifetime.]
...You know how badly that person wants to hurt you, don't you? After what you did to him, he's so angry I can't put it into words. I'm angry at you too, but I'd never-- But when you're around, it's so loud I can hardly keep us separate. I don't feel like myself with you anymore, Tristan. It's only when you're gone that I can calm down and think. So even if I wasn't angry, I still would want to get away. I'm dissolving, like it or not, but I'll last longer without you.
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[He knows. They're both insane at this point, and he hates hates hates knowing that the person inside of him is responsible for making Tristan this way. That he wasn't always like that. That he started out good, and Ariel ruined it. As angry and betrayed as he feels, he loves his big brother and hates himself far more than he could possibly hate Tristan for screwing up in this lifetime.]
...You know how badly that person wants to hurt you, don't you? After what you did to him, he's so angry I can't put it into words. I'm angry at you too, but I'd never-- But when you're around, it's so loud I can hardly keep us separate. I don't feel like myself with you anymore, Tristan. It's only when you're gone that I can calm down and think. So even if I wasn't angry, I still would want to get away. I'm dissolving, like it or not, but I'll last longer without you.